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ｔｗｏ。ａｕｄｉｏ。

[ Ange never really feels the need to broadcast anything over the journals, as anti-social as she is and all. But today she's perhaps feeling a bit more bored or a bit more annoyed than usual, probably because of some recent arrivals. So she has actually taken the effort to speak up for once now, her voice as flat and deadpan as it always is. ]

So, people here.. how much longer are you planning on wasting your time here? Don't get me wrong, it's not like I have found any way out either, but I doubt spending our time here with parties and all sorts of similar ridiculous things is going to help us in any way. Don't tell me all of you have grown so used to this place that you're just complacent with the situation as it is now.

[ Sorry, Luceti, she's a bit of a party pooper indeed. What is having fun. ]

I definitely have no plans of sticking around here if I'd be given the choice. I have better things to do than wasting my time around here.. unlike some other people, apparently. [ a very slight sigh. ]

So I guess in the end it comes down to this.. do any of you honestly want to stick around in this bothersome place and party your days away? I suppose I'm actually a little genuinely curious.

[ It looks like she's going to cut it off right there and then, but she seems to think of something as she starts a filter instead. ]

[ locked away from kakeravoyager and investigatings ]

On a different note.. if anyone has advice for avoiding certain people, I'd like to hear it.

[ A bitter edge creeps into her tone as she speaks on. ] This place has a rather crude sense of humor as to who gets to arrive or leave here.

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Idiot girl... You're completely missing the point. Just because some of us might leave tommorrow or even today doesn't mean that friendship can be broken that easily. It doesn't matter how far the distance between homes, countries, worlds... Whatever. Friends will still friends, no matter what. [He'll just shrug a little. Time to switch to a new one.] Right, right. Whatever you say, Milady. This ignorant servant will learn his place in the world.

That's... certainly a bizarre perspective of viewing the world. People as 'pieces'? I don't think I can accept that ideology. It's too messed up. [But after hearing that, he's starting to feel a little sorry for Erika now.] ... And what happens to that piece whenever it's finished being used up?

... You seriously have a strange way of thinking. Even if you say that friends will be friends, that still won't change anything about the pain, right? When you lose someone, when you go far away without having a way to ever reach them again.. A feeling like that is unbearable. So if you just don't make any bonds in this place, you won't have to deal with it either.

[ Yes, she's actually giving away some more of her true feelings there.. Good job, Touma. ]

My world is pretty bizarre, so the analogy fits it perfectly. Sure, it's a cruel way to describe things, but it's the only accurate way as well. It's just the way things are. And.. [ She has to pause a moment at that, since.. well. She's an used up piece too, after all. ] ... When a piece doesn't have any use left, it's discarded. Thrown away. [ Another hesitant pause, but then she adds- ] Ripped apart.

... [Feeling a moralfag speech coming on.] You... You've been hurt a lot by others in the past, haven't you? Getting hurt and gritting yourself teeth through dirt and mud is a part of life. Pain is something that's unavoidable. But it's ridlicious to shut your heart away from others when they want to reach out their helping hand to you. In the end... You're only hurting yourself and missing out on a lot of fantastic opportunities. I'll admit that humans can be cruel and selfish, but there's plenty of good things about us as well.

Dammit... [And when she says that, he'll just ball up his right hand into a fist.] This world of yours and it's messed up logic... How can you live in a place like that?!

[ awww yis, we're down to these speeches. ]

It's not like that.. It's simply that I don't have any need left to reach out, nor any reason. I don't need something like that anymore, and even if I did there's only one thing still left for me to fulfill back home. [ finding the truth, that is. And then.. being a piece in the witches' game for the rest of her life? ] That I don't need to bother anymore with hurtful or bothersome people is only an extra.

And it's not much, but.. it's just my circumstances. [ Her voice sounds a bit hollow at that though. ] It's all I have, so it's what I need to deal with. It's that simple.

Please don't say things like that. [This is too sad for him to hear, but he has to.] You... Don't talk as if you're going to die whenever your goal is finished. There's a lot more for you to do than simply that. Going out to the beach, partying like an idiot with friends at a festival, going on a date with the boy you like, traveling the world... Things like that. They might sound simple, but those small things altogether make life worth living.

[And he'll say this without any hesitation.] Then I'll destroy it. If it comes down to that, then I'll destroy your world's messed up rules and logic! You don't have to live like this!

... Sorry, Kamijou-san. [ And rather than it just sounding deadpan, it sounds.. lighter. More real. ] But it's the truth, it's just the way it is. It's already over for me. Even if I'd give up on my goal now, it would be over, and even if I would reach my goal in the future, it would still be over for me.

[ For a moment she pauses. ]

I guess you could say I already sold my soul to the devil.

It's never over! There's always a bright and happy future out of there for everyone! [That's right... He remembers a certain silver-haired nun. A girl named Index... A girl who was forced to lose her memories over and over again. Until he found a perfect solution to keep her from losing those precious memories of hers again. Too bad he doesn't remember any of that except in his *~*HEART*~*~.] The possibility always exists! A perfect world where no one is suffering! A happy ending where you and everyone else is smiling together! As long as you don't stop thinking, you can reach that truth for yourself!

.... [He's quiet for a moment himself until he speaks once again with resolve.] Then I'll simply take it back from him.

Edited 2011-09-19 18:22 (UTC)

Of course someone as optimistic as you would believe there is always a happy end, but that's just in stories, right? In the real world that sort of happy end doesn't come that easy. No.. from the very beginning I had my chance at a happy ending smashed.

In other words.. It doesn't exist for me anymore, no matter how much you're willing to try for another person's sake.

... Even if you've given up on the chance for one and even on yourself, I won't be giving up on either sides. Understand?

Forgive me for saying this, but isn't it generally sort of pointless to go on even after the person for whose sake it is has already given up long ago? I would say 'there's no need to go through the trouble for my sake', but we already went over that point and neither of us is going to change our mind on that one, at least.

... [Sorry, Ange. But you're talking to an iron wall here.] That's right... Even if you think it's already too late, I say that it's never too late for you. We might have different perspectives when it comes to certain things, but that doesn't mean we can't get along.

... [And on another subject...] Um... I'll see what I can do for this Furudo Erika girl, too. She should be fully aware of what's going on around her, right?

[ She realises that much. Maybe that's why she's just quiet for a moment instead of persuing the subject - she knows they won't change their mind. (And that he's right, this is rather close to getting along, right?) ]

She should understand the situation here by now, if that's what you mean. Or if you mean back home, she fully realises the situation there too. ... Why are you asking?

[It all comes down to this one simple thing...]

Because I want to help her. She doesn't need to suffer through any of this either, so that's why I want to help her realize that she can choose her own path instead of following her master around.

... Kamijou-san, you have to promise me to take one piece of advice from me, even if it's just this time and you can just continue your brick wall mindset antics after that.

....? And what's that?

Give up on that girl. She's even more of a hopeless case than I am.

[ And there's actually something genuine in her tone - she really does believe that. ]

There's no way you could ever convince her to break away from her master. She's nothing more than a trained lapdog.

[FFFFF-- She can probably hear his tone cracking a bit. That is a hard thing to promise on.]

Dammit... But there's no way she could be as bad as Bernkastel, right? I can't fully believe that even if it's really true...

She may be not as bad as Bernkastel, but she comes pretty close. If you want details.. she nearly forced my older brother to marry her even though he didn't want to, she nearly got him killed before and then later on got him in a completely numb state.

And that's just what she did to Battler onii-chan.. Aside from that she also cut off the heads of several people, including my own mother.

[ She's trying to keep it all deadpan, fairly stiff, but there's some of the sadness and anger at that slipping through just slightly. ]

[He flashes back to the time when he first encountered Accelerator... Accelerator had already killed 10,000 human lives worth before Touma defeated him. He knows that Accelerator is on right path now (and he had to punch him out twice to set his mind straight), but he isn't sure if Erika had her own reasons for committing her crimes. Either way... He's quiet before slipping out a bitter laugh. His voice is quiet and a little shaky... But it ends firmly.]

Heheh... S.... such misfortune. A... all of those things.... To go that far is too ridiculous. I don't understand her reasoning to commit those acts... But if this girl harms anyone here, then I won't hesitate to crush her along with that witch. I will promise you that much.

... It's okay. In that case, if such a thing were to happen..

[ For a moment she pauses, but then she makes her own voice a bit more firm too. ]

I'll definitely back you up in any way I can.

Mm... Thank you. If I have such great support behind me, then I can't see myself losing to anyone.

Don't get the wrong idea. I'm not that much of a support, especially in this place where I can't even use most of my magic, but..

I'd feel bad if I would just let you rush ahead on your own and get yourself into trouble without involving myself with it as well.

Don't underestimate yourself. I'd say being someone's emotional support can be the best support of all. Helping out in fights doesn't always have to come down to assisting with a killer super ultimate technique or something you'd see out of a shounen manga.

And besides, I'd say you're a stronger person than myself.

... Ah, yeah, you're right. I guess I have always been more of a supporting role to start with. [ Like her only purpose in that game was to serve as motivation for Battler to fight on at the cost of her own life. ] The only difference is who I'm backing up here.

And.. you don't think of yourself as a strong person?

To be honest... Not really. I'm just a Level 0. In my world, that's the lowest rank an esper can get simply because they don't have any powers. Overall, I’m just a normal person who can laugh, cry and get hurt like anyone else.

... I might have Imagine Breaker to help me out in deep pinches, but there's still a lot about it that I don't know about. This puzzled Kamijou-san isn't even sure if he could call the power that resides in his right hand a "power".

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