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ｔｈｉｒｄ。ｗｒｉｔｔｅｎ。

[ locked away from breaks_destiny so much ]

[ she can't even bring herself to use voice for this - just sending this message out in general is already embarassing enough, but she can't think of it by herself, so.. have some written text, Luceti. ]

So, let's say there's a person who did a lot for you, and even though you still can't really take it in you feel like you should at the very least try to do something back for them in return. Since it's only natural, and maybe you want to show you care as well or whatever. Something like that.

But all the things they did are so big combined that you can't even start to think of something that would be big enough or of equal value to give in return. So.. what should you even do in a situation like that?

... Purely hypothetical, I mean.

......

This is stupid.

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[He blows at his cup as well, if she doesn't want to share her thoughts that's okay, he won't pry. Besides he's content enough with just being there.]

That's true. I've never got to see how Hinamizawa looked when winter comes, but I hope it looks somewhat like this. It's not something to do everyday, but sitting here wrapped up warm and with a hot cocoa cup in your hands is enjoyable. Specially with good company.

You know.. [ she's quiet for another moment before she speaks on, her breath forming slight clouds in the air. ]

If you would have told me a few months ago that I would be sitting here like this now, I would have thought you were making some lame sort of joke. I'd never have believed it.

[That makes him laugh softly.]

Yeah... If anyone would have told me about this too I wouldn't have believed it either. Maybe a similar situation but not like this.

Still, it's not a bad thing. In fact, I'd only say my situation has improved since then. [ by a lot, actually, even if she doesn't voice it that much - but she really has gotten a better situation to live in rather than that utter loneliness with Bernkastel's presence looming over her from a few months ago.

She dares to take a slight sip from her drink. It's still pretty hot, but she doesn't seem to mind. ]

Mine too. Things are looking better than ever, I would dare to say. Right now I wouldn't mind even if Takano appeared next month.

[Or even if Bernkastel did, he has already made his decisions and taken measures. Bring it on, witch, he's ready for it.]

It feels at times as if things changed too fast, but if I think about it, it's more like I was just too slow to start them when I should have.

... Takano? [ Well, judging from what he told her before.. could it maybe be that nurse he spoke about from his own world, the one who killed the village? She can't imagine who else showing up would be such a disaster, so.. ] Is that the woman you mentioned before? Tch, she better not show up here.

[ Because Ange would be pretty pissed at her. :T ]

Why would it even be 'too slow' to begin with? Didn't it go just fine the way it went? [ she glances to the side at him. ]

Yes... Miyo Takano was her name when we met her. She wasn't a bad nurse and I know that probably she was just as much of a victim as we all were, she was used by other people. Still I can't forgive her, I will never be able to forgive her, even if I forget what I know now. That doesn't mean I can't try to give her a chance in honor of a friend... But it would depend on how she comes and such.

[At any rate it's clear he would prefer if she didn't appear. He laughs at her question.]

It went perfectly fine. Maybe the way things went was simply perfect, but I can't deny it hasn't taken a long time of planning.

[Let's not mention it would have taken longer if it hadn't been for that experiment.]

No, I get it. Even though I was able to understand Eva oba-san a little more when I grew up, I still couldn't forgive her for everything. And since the case with this Takano is even more serious, I can imagine you wouldn't be able to forgive her. To be honest, I wouldn't be able to forgive her either for what she did for you.

[ yes, she cares, okay!! ]

It's okay. I'm used to waiting. [ besides, they're not officially boyfriend and girlfriend yet, okay, the plan isn't fully done yet. ] As long as the end result is good it's okay, right?

Yeah... Well, I know that forgiveness is over-rated anyway. You don't need to forgive and forget to go on in life. Sometimes things can't be forgiven, but that just means you have to make sure to never make the same mistakes again.

[Keiichi smiles, feeling how she cares.]

Mind if I ask about your aunt?

[He laughs at the part regarding her being used to waiting. And who said the plan aimed for that end?]

Yes, that's true. All that ends well, went well. I just worry that waiting too much may lead to a lost chance.

Not at all. [ she sips from her drink again, pausing as if she's thinking on where to start. ] My family died when I was six, and the only person who survived the incident in which they all died was my aunt, Eva Ushiromiya, so she got to take me in since we were the last remaining members of the Ushiromiya family. But.. of course we were both feeling pain from losing our families, but she took it all out on me. I could never do anything right in her eyes, and I was scolded and reprimanded and made fun of all the time. After I was old enough she sent me off to some rich girls' boarding school just to be rid of me. I thought 'good riddance', but unfortunately things weren't much better at that school either.

[ she shrugs a little though, trying to remain casual over it. ]

Well, you haven't lost a chance, right? I'm living here with you guys now, isn't that what you wanted?

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[Keiichi listens in silence, not saying anything even after she's done with the short story. It's sad but he can't help to think that after all both of them were hurt and see it more as a tragedy than the aunt being horrible. They should have been able to heal together and live on together, but they couldn't and this time it's hard to see why or who was at fault. With Satoko it was easier, her uncle and her aunt hit her and treated her like a slave, torturing her just because... Even if Eva wasn't the best aunt in the world it doesn't sound as if she was as bad as those two were.]

For now, yeah, it is. But I'm not done yet.

[ There's almost something faintly amused in the way she's sipping her drink now. ]

'Not done yet'? That sure sounds omnious, Keiichi.

Well, it's nothing new. Is it?

[He's sure she should be expecting it at least.]

Besides, you still have lots of those coins waiting to be used. And with how careful you use them I'll definitively need my whole lifetime to get to see you use them all. Which is quite a great plan, actually.

[ oh, she does expect it. she would be rather surprised if he would give up on all of this by now, really, she knows how stubborn he is. and how stubborn she is, too. ]

So you're just lucky I'm a cheap kind of person for once considering these things. Ah, it's useless, it's all useless.. you plotted all of it just so you'll have to stay by my side until I've used all of them, right? And to think I walked into that trap with eyes wide open..

[One thing is for sure, they have the potential for being good friends at the very least.]

Are you complaining?

[ WHY ARE YOU ASKING THAT UPFRONT TO A TSUNDERE, KEIICHI. Because of that, there's just a pause, which she disguises by sipping from her drink. ]

... No.. I'm not. Why would I be?

[He smiles and takes a sip of his own drink.]

Because I trapped you into being stuck with me for as long as you have even one of those coins unused... And since I plan to give you more as you use them that's going to be a long time.

[At least as long as this place allows them to.]

Well, let's then just keep it at.. I guess I don't mind spending a long time with you. [ not in the Persona social link max sense, okay, don't misunderstand!! ]

Is that what you wanted to hear, huh?

[At least it's not in the Persona social link reversed sense, right?]

It's nice to hear it. And reassuring, but even if you had said otherwise I would have insisted. We both are pretty stubborn at that after all.

[ never reversing this in the social link sense. :| ]

Of course. Ah, how bothersome, two incredibly stubborn people clashing like this. I wonder if one could even win in a situation like that. [ diverting the subject away from her dere a little.. ]

Does one have to win anyway? Isn't it okay to just tie?

[He would love to tie with you Ange. He's very skilled in the use of ropes even.]

[ save that for Haruhi, okay, Ange isn't into that sort of thing.. ]

Oh, how are we supposed to tie then if we're both stubbornly trying to get our own point across? Agree to disagree, or something like that?

[ not that she means it, because.. well, she actually agrees with him, she's just tsundere. ]

Kind of, nothing wrong with being in disagreement if we ever be. So far we haven't really been in disagreement, though, have we?

I don't think we have. At least not on anything important enough to remember, either way.

[ she finishes her drink now, putting down the cup next to her. for a few moments she just quietly watches the snow. ]

... Ah, you know what.. [ from the way she's talking - even if it's her usual tone - it's easy to notice she's going to be kidding. ] Maybe I should start using those coins of yours quicker before we start to disagree on everything. Wouldn't want our agreement streak to be broken.

[Do you want to get rid of him that much?]

It's an idea. But you could also just ask me to never disagree with you by just wasting one of them.

Exactly, now stop resisting and come to his arms [Action]

NOPE, she's still putting up a fight!! [Action]

whatever, she can fight while surrounded by his arms [Action]

KJGHJSD THAT DEFEATS THE PURPOSE OKAY. [Action]

NO IT DOESN'T, IT TOTALLY HURTS HIM TO SEE HER FIGHT WITHIN HIS ARMS. [Action]

ARE YOU TRYING TO MAKE HER FEEL BAD OVER THIS OR WHAT. [Action]

Whatever would give you such an idea [Action]

you know she would feel bad if it hurt him B| [Action]

then she can just not fight at all [Action]

you're blackmailing her with keiichi's feelings... [Action]

I'm not, I'm just stating facts [Action]

but it's hurting her..... [Action]

now you're trying to blackmail me with her feelings? [Action]

yes, yes I am :) [Action]

well it's not going to work [Action]

why not... [Action]

'cause Keiichi is too derp to notice he's hurting her [Action]

she'll just suffer.. alone... [Action]

that can be fixed if she comes to his arms, no more suffering or alone [Action]

f-fine.. she'll come to his arms.. don't think too much of it.. [Action]

it's Keiichi, he rarely really thinks unless it's vitally important [Action]

well that's good, that means he can't think too much of it either!! [Action]

exactly so don't worry at all and just stay here between his arms [Action]

w-well.. it /is/ a little nice and comfy.. [Action]

/cuddling her happily [Action]