ｆｉｆｔｈ。 ｗｒｉｔｔｅｎ。

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[ ... It's strange. When Ange comes back from the mission she went on to get Battler's departure of her mind, she decides to visit her mother first, just quickly - just to make sure she's okay now, although she doesn't doubt it, Kyrie's pretty strong, after all.. but instead the house just seems really quiet, and no matter where she looks in it, it's like there's nobody there. She can already guess what it means, which is why she soundlessly drops on the floor with a near empty-looking expression as she opens the journal and tries to contact her mother that way. ... Still.. nothing.

No way. No way-- first Battler left, and now her mother did too, and neither times was she even allowed to say goodbye? Silently she shakes her head to herself, but instead Ange notices that she's already start crying. It's unfair, too unfair-- losing her family at the start of October twice by now..

It takes a long time before she even stops crying. But even then she doesn't move from where she's sitting, she completely lacks the power and will to do so. She doesn't even feel like going home anymore, even if that's only right next door to the house she's in right now. She just...
... After what seems like an eternity it still takes way too much effort to make herself open the journal, writing in it with shaky fingers, the words empty and meaningless. ]

For those that hadn't noticed yet, Battler Ushiromiya left Luceti a little while ago.

As of this morning, Kyrie Ushiromiya is gone as well.

( ooc: i'll be slow on tags since i have quite the backlog, so please bear with me! )

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[the_tv_is_a_lie]

[Another minute pause before he writes back.]

Really?

[He didn't think there was anyone else that had the same tendencies...then again, the world wasn't exactly a small place; there was enough room for more empathic people like him.]

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Yeah. He was [ the word is written, then quickly and somewhat shakingly striked through. ] is a very kind person. Even if his enemy would be hurt, even then he would probably still care about it and feel bad for them in the end.

He's the type that doesn't want to see anyone sad either.

[ How ironic that she's sad now because of his depature now then, right? ]

[the_tv_is_a_lie]

[So dreadfully ironic. That, and it shows how much she cares for her brother.

Dead or alive...he must have been a strong influence on her life.] He would've been a good friend, then. [Part of him regrets not talking to him, but...he can't linger on that anymore. A pause, before he continues--]

...And I'm sure that if he was still here he wouldn't want to see you cry.

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Then he should've thought twice before leaving again.

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[ ...

For a moment she stares at the paper - she can hardly believe that she was the one who wrote those vile words, really. It's not like he could've helped it after all, but.. ... but.. it just stings. Being left alone again and again, always being the only one who's left behind.. ]

Sorry. I didn't meant it like that. I just

[ no words appear for a moment or two. ]


It's not easy to just stop caring.

[the_tv_is_a_lie]

[...So it wasn't the first time that he'd left Luceti. ...damn.

Definitely a good reason for her to be all distraught about it...especially with the way the village seems to draw in people only to just spit them out when it was through with them. He sighs a little before writing another reply.]

I understand that...but some things are just not in our control.

[...If only he'd realized that sooner, after Rise disappeared. He hit a slump that simply should not have been there.

He knows better now, however.]

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That doesn't make it any more fair though, right? Why are we always being tugged around by things [ the pen lingers there.. ] supposedly higher than us, powers we can't understand or whatever..

.. Should we suffer just for the sake of their whims?

[ it's too much like the witches back home and their cruelty. ]

[the_tv_is_a_lie]

No, it doesn't.

...I can't say I know the answer to that. [Even if he had been pulled around by a goddess, himself, all for the sake of an experiment--the same reasons they were pulled here, in Luceti.] For all I know, it's fate having a sick sense of humor.

But rolling around in our own suffering isn't going to do any good. I lost a very close friend ['No...someone who was family to me.'] before I came back, but it won't stop me from pushing forward.

I hope you find the strength to do the same.

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[ She wants to be strong. Honestly, she does, more than anything - and she pretends to be strong too, most of the time, but in the end she knows she needs other people to pull her through always. She's so sick and tired of being alone.

But reaching out is difficult. It's why there's a long pause and quite some hesitation before she manages to write on -- ]

Maybe if we could talk again sometime.

.. That'd.. be nice, I mean.

[ And showing weakness is still difficult, but she tries. ]

[the_tv_is_a_lie]

[Never fear, Ange--you just made friends with a boy that's willing to talk things out with you. He'll reach out to you, just as you tried to reach out to him.

And maybe one day, he'll help you sort those bitter feelings out.]

Yeah. I'd like that, too. [...A brief pause, before he decides it's probably time for a proper introduction.]

...I'm Seta Souji. And you are?

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[ Souji is the best, okay. Ange's not so good at reaching out, but.. if someone's reaching back, she can pretend a little more to herself that she wasn't the first one reaching out - just a mental way to justify it to her own tsun. (Yes, even for friendship.) ]

Ange. .. Ange Ushiromiya, although I doubt I need to add the last name by now.

[the_tv_is_a_lie]

[Oh, Ange... 8U He'll be the best younger bro you could ever ask for.]

...It's a pleasure to meet you, Ushiromiya-san.

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[ now ange is the onee-chan for once.. ]

I guess I should say the same, but.. the circumstances could've been better, huh?

[the_tv_is_a_lie]

[And she'll enjoy it once she's out of this depressive state. :S]

Yeah. There could've been much better times than this... ['...I should know. My whole life in Inaba was full of meetings in terrible circumstances.']

But it can't be helped.

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In that case.. let's talk again sometime better.

[ As in, 'I wouldn't mind that'. But not being said out loud. ]