ｔｈｉｒｄ。 ｗｒｉｔｔｅｎ。

[repudiate]

[ locked away from breaks_destiny so much ]

[ she can't even bring herself to use voice for this - just sending this message out in general is already embarassing enough, but she can't think of it by herself, so.. have some written text, Luceti. ]

So, let's say there's a person who did a lot for you, and even though you still can't really take it in you feel like you should at the very least try to do something back for them in return. Since it's only natural, and maybe you want to show you care as well or whatever. Something like that.

But all the things they did are so big combined that you can't even start to think of something that would be big enough or of equal value to give in return. So.. what should you even do in a situation like that?

... Purely hypothetical, I mean.

......

This is stupid.

Comments

[ written ]

[fierybluebird]

Speaking from experience, that's worse. You should never regret the time spent with another, even if they die or disappear.

[ written ]

[repudiate]

Then what could you even do to make up for the loss if they do disappear?

[ written ]

[fierybluebird]

Carry on with no regrets, the way they'd want you to.

My father would want me to look after my family, so that is what I'm doing.

[ written ]

[repudiate]

Yeah, but it's pretty hard to do what they want to, right? I'm sure anyone would want the people left behind to carry on without regrets, but that's such a hard and selfish thing to ask from them if you ask me.

[ written ]

[fierybluebird]

It is so much. Especially since when they're the ones gone, they're not the ones who have to deal with that burden at all. To be the last one standing... it's not something they understand.

It is still better this way though, and that's what they want.

[ written ]

[repudiate]

So I should just listen to the requests of selfish people, huh? I understand.

[ it's mostly meant a little joking - she's trying to hide her own feelings about it, since she knows it's true and she knows what it's like to be 'the last one standing' and how much it hurts. ]

[ written ]

[fierybluebird]

Yes.

[He's taking it jokingly since apparently she understands something he's not even used to sharing.]

It's often the selfish who get to dictate how things work. Such a pain, right? The best part, they think it's selfless of them.

[Well it is hard to argue with someone sacrificing their life to protect their family, but still, there are days Marco is less than appreciative of looking after the rest, always knowing he could lose them all before himself. It's a heavy burden; living on in spite of that.]

[repudiate]

Yeah, it's pretty sad, but.. they hurt you the most when they think they're actually helping you.

[ not that she is any different - she would do the same for her family. ]

And then you're left behind alone.

[fierybluebird]

Maybe we're just envious because we wish we could the same and join them again, eh?

[repudiate]

Of course all we want is being able to join them again, right? Especially when it's just you left, since you feel so lonely compared to them all being together somewhere beyond.

[fierybluebird]

I guess that's why you have to take as many moments as you can, before they're stolen from you.

[repudiate]

But doesn't the memory of those moments only add to the pain from the moment it's stolen from you on?

[fierybluebird]

Only for a little while. After that, it helps smooth them over a lot more than trying to avoid the pain ever could.

[repudiate]

Well.. I guess I'll just have to trust your experience on this then, huh?

[fierybluebird]

My experience shows trusting it tends to work well for other people too.